Friday, July 9, 2010

Controlling Others: not the answer

I had a mini break-through these past few days.

My 5 month old daughter had been getting up every 2 hours during the night. Part of this may have to do with a major change in her schedule as we went to Canada for a week.

I've been exhausted.

I've always been a firm believer in prayer.

So, to my logic, I prayed every night and day that she would give me a good nights rest. Ask and ye shall receive, right?? Well yea, but no.

A few days ago, a thought came to mind: change the way you pray.

I prayed that I would be given the energy I needed to be able to cater to her needs. I prayed that I would know what I could do to help her sleep longer and better. I prayed that I would be given more patience to deal with her at three in the morning. While praying for these things, I still maintained the hope that she would start sleeping better and through the night.

I realized that I cannot pray to change others, but I can pray that I will be able to cope better with situations, because I can change myself, and that is something I do have control over.

As a result, I honestly feel much happier and more energetic. I embrace her personality, and haven't been getting upset with her or resenting her for taking away my precious sleep.

Kind of selfish of me now that I look back.

Here's to mini breakthroughs!


Penny said...

I love this post!! That is a great perspective I never thought of. Thanks!

Kenny & Brittany said...

I love your blogs! Great stuff... and I have to agree great perspective! This post totally applies to me... I am ready for more than a couple hours of sleep at a time! :)